This is a whiny entry. Don't say I didn't warn you. Today I want to give Autism and big FU!
So G&L had a field trip
for school today and I was a chaperone. I thought I was going to lose my
mind. L did great for about two hours which is really great for
him. He just got super tired and started to slow down. Even though he was exhausted he still managed to hold it together.
G was a MANIAC...people (not his
class) were staring at him and me, like I was a big A-hole. He kept
throwing himself on the floor, screaming, flapping, crying, yelling etc.
Anytime I would try to pick him up to comfort him he would hit me in
the face. I know he was acting like this because he was way to overstimulated, but it doesn't make it any easier when your in the midst of it. I was a little over zealous and didn't bring
his stroller inside(he has a wheel chair stroller which has a compression
clip on it, to help him and it's anti tip for when he throws himself). We
had to walk about one city block back to the car and he kept throwing
himself on the side walk and having a protest. I was pouring sweat by
the time I got back to the car. One of his teachers asked if I needed
help getting them back to the car, but stupidly, I said No. As G is throwing himself on the sidewalk people were walking by giving me side eye. I may have said, "What? You've never seen a three year old with Autism?" to someone. What the
hell is wrong with me? I need to accept peoples help! They are trained
to deal with this! I just feel super defeated today. Autism is a bitch. The end.